Just like many others, it was my personal journey filled with struggles and self discovery that led me to where I am today. When my son was a few months old, I started to struggle with the transition into motherhood. It wasn’t that I didn’t feel confident in my role of a caretaker, it was more that I struggled with letting go of parts of my old life that no longer fit or served me.

I was also mourning the part of my relationship that existed before our son. This led me down a path of working on healing myself spiritually and energetically. Today, understanding and embodying a balance of feminine and masculine energies on an individual level as well as how they influence relationships plays a role in my vision of health. We are, afterall, ultimately just that; energy that is always flowing, exchanging and influencing all the parts of us and the world around us.

The rest of my story comes with my daughter. She was truly sent here to teach me so much about myself. Here is the plot; it’s 2021 (need I say more), I’m working in the hospital, I am about to lose my job and I am also dealing with a lot of stressors in my home life. I am starting my day at 5 am with a cup of coffee after getting zero sleep due to the anxious thoughts racing in my mind all night. I don’t get food in me until about 10 (if I get a break) and by then I am light headed and short tempered.

My hair is falling out by the handful too, by the way. It’s been 11 months of trying for a baby so I ask my doctor one day in the hallway at work, “Is there anything I could be doing before the 1 year mark?” The only thing she asks me is if I have a thyroid problem to which I reply, “I don’t know”. After that her suggestion was to go camping and enjoy some beers at the fire for the summer.

Instinctively I knew there had to be something I could be doing to improve my chances of becoming pregnant. This is where I started my deep dive into how I could support my hormones and the importance of fertility for women’s health in general. When I paired this new knowledge with my understanding of what it means to embody my feminine energy, I felt as though I finally truly felt in tune with myself.

Looking back I can see that I was living in a state of fight or flight. Adrenaline and cortisol was constantly rushing through my veins. I was living more in my masculine energy, which made me feel miserable and also created tension in my relationship. How could I expect my body to create new life if it was living in a state of survival for months on end?

I thought I was healthy because I ate well and moved my body. I have since learned that we are more than our physical bodies. There is also an emotional part as well as an energetic part of us that together, with our physical body, makes us whole. These powers are constantly connected and working with each other.

If you take away anything from reading this I hope it’s these two points:
1. Your fertility is a marker for your overall health. Whether you want to become pregnant or not.
2. Maternal health is directly linked to the next generation’s health not only physically, but emotionally too.

My own journey serves as my inspiration to help other women live in a way that supports their hormones, optimize their fertility, connect with and understand their feminine energy, and get to a place where their mind, body and soul are truly nourished. If you can relate to my story in some capacity, please know that you are not alone.

Today’s “rise and grind”, “work hard, play hard” society makes it difficult for our true essence as a woman to thrive. We all just need a little guidance back to our roots.